I came across this website for a documentary while reading this post on CleanandDelicious.com. I read her post and then immediately went over to the website to watch the video. It hit home.
I struggle with confidence and self esteem. I guess digging REALLY deep I can say that I always have. In high school and unfortunately as young as junior high I turned to drugs for a sense of belonging in a group of people and to make me fun or fit in... Luckily I got out of that crowd of people by my senior year of high school and before it ever became a real problem.
And then I think a lot of people get hit with the shock that who you were in high school doesn't matter in the real world anyway. That sense of belonging I had in my tiny town didn't matter when I graduated and moved away.
Then after high school I put on weight. At the time I thought it was the worst thing! But now looking back- I think it was just me growing into my body. I finally started to get hips and a butt. Now those are things I try to embrace. Back then, I didn't love it.
Then of course started the ridiculous dieting cycle that I think most women go through. The ups and downs and calorie restricting then putting the weight back on when I realized I can't maintain that forever. I am just now realizing and accepting these patterns.
I have a huge problem with comparison. I always have. If only I could have her hair or her thighs. That's what usually ends up bringing me down. I think I mentioned before that I unfollowed a ton of people on Instagram recently because of this problem.
All of this is huge for me. I have never admitted any of this out loud or even to myself until recently. So I am working on it. I am working on accepting me. I am working on not turning to other people for my acceptance. I am working on loving my body the way it is and working hard to become strong healthy and not just skinny.
I love the concept of this documentary and I think its something that women need to watch. I hope they make it. Its something we all need to see!!!
You can watch the video here.
You can contribute to the campaign here
XO,
Heather
